On YouTube, there’s a Seane Corn (well-known and respected yoga teacher) video about the new president. She says it for me. I want to be part of that group that is watching in the direction of the creative thinkers and activists. I want to be an assist in any way I can to advance the essential compassionate nature of self and others. I want to hold a line for integrity and compassionate, ethical behavior.
Yesterday, after writing, I realized what I’m truly feeling – it’s grief. I’m sad about what I see and hear. I want to be there for others, stand up and protect the vulnerable because it’s right, because I saw too many who wouldn’t, couldn’t stand up. If the rest of the world decides they can live without dignity, integrity and compassion, I can’t. Regardless of the cost, I can’t. I don’t think life is worth anything without it. It’s the essential purpose of a living being: Compassion. I miss the mark frequently, lately, but I keep going back, keep looking for the influences that will draw me back to what is most important. Those influences do exist.
In a high school civics class, the teacher (my favorite) went around the room and asked each of us to say what we wanted to be as adults. My turn and I said, “A good person.” Most laughed, two didn’t. The teacher said, “Go ahead, say why.” I said because I knew I was smart and would always want to learn and always would be able to make a living, but the work was to be a good person, to not hurt others. I said that I was hurt a lot and this person also hurt others a lot, when I was grown and on my own, I didn’t want to see it anymore, I didn’t ever want to be that. The girl behind me (my closest friend) leaned over the desk, hugged and kissed me. I was ridiculed by others. At that time, I didn’t seem to notice or care. I meant what I said, corny as it sounds. I realize that’s what the grief is about, I still do mean that. That’s still what I want. I want to see it in others, too. I don’t want to see it fade away.
Mercy, love, compassion, grace, they aren’t just emotions. They are the reason for life. Whatever else we have created, the reason for life is to love and demonstrate it by being good to others. I’m sorry for the ways I haven’t been and am back on my mission.
So, when we’re ready for that snarky remark to put someone who irks us in their place, they are a person, they came by their ideas somehow, they have a chance to awaken as we’re trying to. Stand up, protect and be kind. Have a day of kindness, delivered and received. Thank you. Lilie